I have this sinking suspicion that I use my "writing" as an excuse to daydream. When people ask how I spent my time I say "I was writing". But not a single word has been written down. Terrible, right? I just day dream and play act and it serves no purpose.
Except... it does. I've said before the stories were too big for me. It's not just that. They were too vague, too insubstantial to be successfully caught on paper. This non-writing: the playacting (not really, i think out loud. So what if I use the characters voice... don't judge me), the daydreaming, the doodling, the talking... It's all really important.
Cause this is how I set the rules. This is how I build the world. Yeah, most of it is just in my head, but its an evolving process. I mean, the story stuff evolves as I go. And most of my breakthroughs, the stuff that really gives the character depth, happen during "non-writing". Like how Ziph is a moral relativist. Or who the "Big Bad" is. (I love them, they are insane). Whether any of the characters will address the problem of religion. Or even something as simple as whether Terri likes vegetables or not (if it can be dipped in ranch, she's good).
So, yeah, a lot of stuff never gets written. But now that I think about it, a lot of it doesn't need to be. You know, the best way to tell whether or not an idea is insane is to speak it outloud. So non-writing, I guess I've decided it's legit.
~Alex
